Monthly Archives: August 2013

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First Day of High School

First day of school sucked. I had to ride the bus in the morning because my mom couldn’t get off from work since she has night shifts and it was too early for her to go. I mean, it pissed me off that she broke her promise to drop me and my brother off to school because it’s the first day, you know? I didn’t want to ride the bus yet. I was not ready. Considering the fact that it was also my first day of high school. Yes, I’m a freshman. My classes were okay, surprisingly. But when school finally ended for the day, I started walking to the bus stop, which is like four blocks away. And turns out, my mom was picking us up. Obviously, my brother knew that, but he did not tell me. I saw him see me walking though. I was so irritated with everyone and everything that I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I even gave everyone that talked to me an attitude, especially my mom. I don’t know why, but I wanted her to feel the way I feel whenever she breaks her promises. (I get hurt a lot. Especially when she doesn’t have that much time for us anymore) Then she took us school shopping, and I felt kind of better. Just a little. When we got home, I wanted to paint my nails. But I kept messing up so I started getting irritated again and poured out my anger/irritation to my mom. I asked her for the money she owed me and she gave it without hesitation. She didn’t even get mad. She just told me to sleep early because I have school the next day. I felt so bad and so I started to overthink everything I’ve done bad to her. I went to bed and started sobbing until I fell asleep. So basically, my first ever day of high school started horrible.

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Walk Through and Orientation

Walk through day was alright. I wasn’t comfortable at first but the teachers were nice so they let me in because I wasn’t really supposed to be there. I was supposed to be there the day before but my mom wanted to do it at the same day as my brother.

Orientation day was okay. It wasn’t terrible, but it wasn’t great either. I felt awkward since I didn’t know anyone and everyone knew each other because they went to the same school last year. The looking for seats on the bleachers was quite hard for me too. But when we got with our groups, I actually didn’t feel shy. I felt kind of confident. I was talking to everyone in my group, asking them for their names and complimenting them. But then we got to the introducing yourself part, where I obviously had to talk about myself. And I said some things I shouldn’t have and now I’m overthinking everything even though I know they won’t remember what I said because I don’t even remember what they said. And that’s when my confidence disappeared and I went to being my shy self again. But I made two friends. They were nice, and they didn’t judge me. Or at least that’s what I think.

I also have to go back to school tomorrow to get my locker. They had a glitch on their computers and they didn’t get to print my locker number and ugh, I’m starting to think this school sucks but then at the same time, I’m starting to like it because it boosted my confidence up. Which doesn’t happen to me a lot.